Two weeks of no shopping and I'm ready to stand up. My names Jessica and I'm a shopaholic. I think it's time I sit on a plastic circle with fellow sufferers and have an intervention. In the last two weeks I've tried to take stock of thinks I want to use up. I have products coming out of my eye balls and clothes I'd forgetting existed. I'm supposed to be living on a strict budget. Clearly this spending ban came just at the right time.
Believe it or not, but I'm somebody that gets stressed when they have too much choice or too many options. If you ask me what I want for tea, I will tell you "anything" (Yep. I'm one of those people). Not because I'm being awkward but unless I'm randomly craving something, giving me the unlimited choice of deciding a meal will overwhelm me to the extent that I just don't end up choosing at all. Think of it like an laptop. If you have loads and loads of programmes open and running all at the same time, it slows down, so eventually it will just freeze up. That's me. I freeze. I've discovered that in order to function, I'm going to have to perform and disk cleanup on my life.
But I'm guessing you've got to this stage your wondering why does my ability to be decisive, or lack of one, make me shop more. Simple answer. It doesn't, per se, but it does fit into the bigger picture.Like most people, when I'm stressed/sad/emotional, I'm far more susceptible to the clever marketing ploys of brands, particularly those online. I'll then comfort buy, on impulse buying into whatever ideal the product promises to deliver in beautiful and well-thought out packaging.Of course you will never wake up looking like Cara after using a lip stain, yet the campaign does its job.Overwhelmed with all my binge buying (told you I'd get back to it ;)), for some reason only known to the gremlin that lives in my brain, I think I'm best off buying something else, that I can use instead of confronting the twenty million other things I have and using them instead. Very logical. And so the cycle starts again. And again. And again. Until you have an overflowing Ikea Alex and no more room in your floordrobe, let alone your wardrobe.
In the last two weeks I've been struck by some kind of vertigo and sickness bug at the same time as feeling a bit rubbish. I think I'm going through some sort of grieving period for the student lifestyle, thinking of all the things I could of done. Very much shoulda woulda coulda (good old Beverley Knight) very much harmful. It's at this time I would usually be clicking away and have that awkward confrontation with the Post Man for the 5th morning in a row. Amazingly, I haven't. Partly down to being absolutely exhausted by the time I get home from work, and partly down to being slightly more aware of my spending, and clicking. Whatever the reason, its clear you shouldn't got shopping when your not fully yourself and a bit, dare I say it, emotional. I don't think I've save up enough for my new car in the last two weeks, but Rome wasn't built in a day (maybe it could be bought though?). Until then I think I'm going to keep myself distracted and attempt to avoid the sales. Key word: attempt.
What do you think about emotional buying and mind freeze ?